And so life goes on .....

My one week of breather/hols are....

2011-06-19T22:39:00.003+08:00

Going to end :(

Two more months till graduation, its so fast that i kinda dread going to school nowadays. How sad it is, people out there are dying to study or get a degree of their choice. The paper chase is so important these days!

Time spent at the gym isnt going to waste at all, results are seen and more to come ! Though i get constant aches on my thighs and all.

I have something to confess! aint i crazy to book an appointment for Brazillian waxing for myself? geeesh, there's definitely a first time for everything. hmm experience was obviously horrid for first timers!

Faces

2011-05-16T14:38:00.003+08:00

Some faces in life we meet over the years displays sincerity of their immense longing to get to know you and build a full-filled relationship with you.

Another kind of face we see everyday is merely to our advantage , perhaps climbing up the corporate ladder or even satisfying your self-actualisation needs. These are to me can show both innate kinds of pleasure as well as an ugly portray of that face.

Then again , there are the faces that reminds you nothing more than just memories of the pass.Be it good or bad, there are somethings that there's no other progressions from there onwards.

Change is indeed a horrible phase in life that everyone painstakingly have to go through. Whether you like it or not, you have to learn to adapt to whatever the world throws at you. Perhaps, putting on a " i-dont-give-a-damn-about-you face" is one of the best things in life i have discovered in my uni days.

Xi dou belly land!

2011-04-26T11:10:00.009+08:00

Off at 5am in the morning just to catch our bus to Camerons, i doubt i got any sleep that night. The grizzly was snoring so loud on my bedroom floor that it felt as though like my bed was on a constant vibration mode.My photo does justify my uneven eyes and messy uncombed hair for the first day! His sister bought us couple mickey and minnie T from hk disney land!

We had multiple stops towards our destination! went to some chocolate factory at KL, didnt really buy much stuff this trip i guess... And pretty soon it was steamboat dinner at Camerons! Like finally we are somewhat nearer to the hotel! Fatigue was kicking in and both of us were very restless the entire time, as soon as we got our rooms...the snoring engine started...

Anticipated the great morning view from our balcony in the morning. I look good eh!? haha

We just couldnt help it but were always the last two to board the bus . For almost 3 times in this entire trip , we were late for the bus and everyone were waiting just for the infamous couple to depart from the bus! wahaha! the first time was in the morning, second was the aftermath of shopping for dinner at the pasar malam and lastly was the trip back home from KL shopping mall! Some drunk uncle was very pissed off he scolded us on the 3rd late arrival to the bus! LOl

OMG! LOOK AT THAT HUGE GIANORMOUS LAMB FEEFEE OWNS!~ SOOOOOOOO CUTE!!!

Some other photos from cactus valley , strawberry farms, butterfly parks i uploaded on fb... these are a couple.

Mr Chan surprised me with roses when we arrived at some Rose valley , he wasnt into entering the area to view them... he told me i might as well use the money to buy you some... i told him yes indeed. you shall get me a bunch of them so that i can bring them home... the next moment he left the bus to throw some rubbish and came back with three bunch of roses! -.-! i shall be more careful with what i wish for...i might just get it...with jabie chan... -.-!

Tomorrow!!!

2011-04-21T19:07:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow we'll be heading off for our long awaited holiday!!! weee!!

Goodbye Singabored ! Hello to the land of teas! Cameron Highlands and KL! <3

MEGA MEGA glad that exams are over and holidays are here! :D

Hellooo april!

2011-04-11T14:22:00.002+08:00

I know my most anticipated month of all has arrived!

Celebrated the Chan bday with ding tai fung, and gift showering...didnt managed to get some cake.. but had our fill at food for thought!

haven been to the gym in two days already and exams are on Wednesday! omg! stop Gymming feonna!!! time to get back to work!!!

Zzzzz, seriously super excited for our cameron highlands trip on easter weekend!! sure to be superb fun! but for now exams first....

Bear <3 Bunny foreva & eva eva! :P

Black Furballs

2011-03-28T16:33:00.002+08:00

For the Record, this love is amazing!

Kudos to the Chan who took on the challenge to wear the " BALLSY" t-shirt! the Balls are like black furballs! damn nice to touch and play with them! hahaha!! as tho he has multiple nipples!Ok , i know this sounds so wrong! in all ,kudos to his bravery!

Cant wait for this trimester to end, my getaway is awaiting us! Amazed Amazed! <3

To the land of "XI DOU BELLY" and "SCONES" , here we come..... rah rah...brewing with utter excitment for sure.

Awaiting love

2011-03-05T00:40:00.002+08:00

Unsure of how many days it has been since i haven seen him, letting the days pass on as it goes is the only way.

How deep is this going to go? Depths of infinite measures are possible. Despite lightnings flash down on your daily goings, somehow you manage to brave through the storm with God's ominent presence around.

Amazed i am. Might be tired from this long walk into life's journey. Where are we going? How long will it take? Just going through the motions that are necessary of growing pains indeed.

Finally, it feels like i have tasted the best and am unwilling to give up on this one anytime or any possibility.Have you tasted it yourself? Indeed it keeps you wanting to go back for more, addictive it sure is. For now, love awaits till we meet again....it is real so surreal, i cannot believe it is not a dream!!

Elated nonetheless, yearn through the times and eagerly awaiting for his return <3

We always think that the world needs Feebie around....

Uncovered

2011-02-21T20:21:00.004+08:00

Lies and dirty truths are uncovered. It only boils down to one thing when human beings turn the other cheek and surprise you with unmoral conduct that was expected to be seen.

This is a begining of a new chapter in life,spiritually stricken to the core of awkwardness and discomfort. Much has been done and said. God tore the veil and break down walls of the temples to show you the truth. My eyes are open, i can see through the abundance grace of God!

I dont need human pity or comfort for the state i am in right now. Strong-willed as i am , independance driven in most aspect wont kill my arising ego. For i walk in the light of God, there's nothing to be ashamed of. Im so glad i've left that stupid jerk; i knew that bitch was going out with him.

Thank God for Jabie, we dont have to try this relationship at all. It comes so easily. Effortless and flawless. So what if im showing off my undying love for him? jealous much? Oh green eyed monster.... dont give me the shit that you're immature on how to handle such situations...You are 4 years OLDER than me. Utter rubbish.

In anyway GBU and ur awesome undying love for the kite flyer and "super star". I dont care what you guys do, have sex, married or pregnant. fuck it. seriously.

Life is filled with simple surprises!

2011-02-17T19:02:00.004+08:00

Valentine's day has passed, but seriously why bother when you are in love with that person whole heartedly?

Its simply amazing that when you meet that Mr right, all is perfect and not in any demand.

Flowers for the beauty ! (=

Nama nama indulgence

My ultimate ticket for the night!!!! <3

Genuinely, i've never ever felt so blessed in my life.

Really Praise God for bring such a person into my life...

With uncertainties left aside, we just take each step at a time with God providence.... Days like these i will never forget...

Simply amazing <3

Happenstance of a life

2011-02-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

Lovely Happanstance of my lifestyle has just begun... that glow in her face is shining shining and gleaming through the darkest days !

I am one blessed lady indeed and Amen to that! =D

I saw someone at school buying 50 bottles of AJAR today! omg!!!! epic! FWAHAHAHA!your life sux man :P

Anyhow, Rachael yamagata tickets are all sold out :( . Disappointed it may be , but im still looking forward to V-day this year. I know its probably something out of the ordinary like no other .

Balala, J is sooo comical he always never fail to make me laugh till i cramp up / tear!

Eternal bliss

2011-01-12T00:21:00.004+08:00

Im so filled from dinner! J brought me out for nice dinner again! i feel so spoilt nowadays! Plus he's getting fatter and fatter...

Its pretty obvious to know that J really knows how to chase after me... nonetheless it seems that we are progressing towards a relationship. This is obviously true that he really wants to earn me as his girlfriend! As hard as it seems , im loving this phase but im not too ready for another relationship yet to come. J knows so , and will wait on me . Well lets see where will this take us to...

So much as i have never thought, he's so much like me in various aspects! Much bliss to know someone who thinks and behaves pretty much the same as me. Except the fact that he's 5 years older than me. Somehow, i dont feel any age gap between us at all!

You never know what the future holds, but you know that God is leading the way <3

Unworthy

2011-01-10T11:22:00.000+08:00

So much as I detest the shell I'm living in, in desperation of ways to get a new shell is an ideal goal. How unworthy it is to be when one is unsatisfied with oneself and yet have more than enough people to love you as you naturally do not deserve as a normal sinful being.

This has yet to be the grace of God. I am amazed beyond description of words.

Its crazy as it seems but I think I have found a keeper. One who is as crazy as I am, outgoing natured , and pretty much more wild than I am by a million times!

I can honestly start singing and dancing cause of your love, that I can feel it right now, this moment!

I'm one happy girl for sure !

New Year to a New start!

2011-01-03T12:52:00.003+08:00

Started off the new year with great outings and family gathering !

I cant believe that school is really starting officially tomorrow AGAIN! Time to buy my new textbooks again!

Spent my New year's eve counting down at church watchnight service as the usuals of almost doing that as an annual event already. The message was clearly spoken about grace.

Headed to the gym at One george street with dad for an awesome time of workout of Body attack and soaking in the great view by the pool! Aside from that met up with J as i promised to share with him the thai tea cake i brought back from BKK last year! Honestly thought that it might turn mouldy or got smashed in the process of travelling 100 of miles away from sg without refridgerator to keep it cool! Thank God it tasted top notch as before.

J treated me Skinny Pizza at Wheelock place , which i totally love the squid ink pizza! gastronomic escapade for sure! He also wanted to treat me to singapore's best cheesecake, headed down to Hilton hotel but all were sold out... probably next time then :)

Sunday morning service was pretty bad with screaming + crying kids in the auditorium! their parents did not seem to care on making effort to discipline their children! how annoying and it was on going throughout the entire sermon! pffft! im super annoyed ttm!

Moving on, sunday night was spent at YAM New year's party......OMG it was as usual freaking boring with the intense atas atmosphere. Well it has been expected but im immuned to that treatment. I brought J along and it pretty seems like a good thing afterall ; he holds good conversation with people around me . Sigh, i was embarress TTM at the party last night... my table volunteered me to represent their table to play games :( and ATAS people bullied me and i was ubber kan chiong spider no one came to help me! :( so sad ! But i dont think the ATAS people will even bother coz , they think too high and mighty about themselves :D

After the party we took some shots with my Hp camera before the battery went flat!

Ended off the awesome weekend with J at Haagen Daz filled with good conversation about church and God stuff :)

This year just seems awesome :)

Closing the chapter of 2010

2010-12-30T23:48:00.011+08:00

Its time to make summary of what happened in the year 2010! Its been an awesome year for me! just look at the pictures and the rest of this post!

The most epic change of all after a two years tiring relationship ended around June!

Goodbye to Richard for good!

Had a humble 21st birthday celebration with my family at tung lok restaurant!

Wasnt long till i got back on my feet with Jesus to get on with life and Thank God for that epic moment in YAM retreat!Something annual and needed for me to get back on track with God during that moment!

Try spotting me!im on the last row i think!

Other than that school wise i have to give thanks to God for awesome results and whatever that has passed through this year of uni life! Big thank you to many uni mates who made every moment in school enjoyable and endurable till we graduate soon! :D For now, we shall savour every moment we have !

Went to two countries this year for great holiday! China;hongkong and shen zhen and Bangkok Thailand!!!

Hooray to great friendship over the years with Dearest Polymates and all! people such as Nang nang, Cuiwen, Edgar, sufyan , nicholas and more whom i might have not been in touch but you guys were missed dearly! Hisyam has disappear from the face of this earth! haven met him throughout the entire 2010! what a friend la! tsk!

Praise God for Cell bonding and many other new friends that i have gotten to met this year! such as Maisy, Michael, Kelvin, Morina, Jabie ...... so many to name ...probably will turn into a list!

Last but not least, My awesome parents have been the greatest pillars of my life! May God bless our family abundantly in the years to come !!!!

So long 2010, much has been enjoyable ... in 2011, i shall await for new beginings and God's abundance grace to shine on me!

Happy New Year <3

A year without Christmas in town

2010-12-29T14:54:00.003+08:00

Im really glad i wasnt in sg for christmas somehow, last night's dinner date was something to compensate for the loss of my absense in town.

Mr J treated to post Christmas dinner at waraku in return for presents! totally acceptable stuff :)

Its pretty good food! He ordered so much food for two person! Can tell he's rather generous to the extent of spoiling me somehow! isnt that good? Nothing official here, we are just dating and no strings attached. No one's gonna hold me down baby!

anyway, some credits for good conversation and laughter to the night... here's some pictures :)

Lady absinthe kissy

Mr J

Gastronomic foody

Rollercoasters

2010-12-28T16:07:00.003+08:00

My life can never be that colourful without you. At this moment, right now.

Life is 1001% unexpected and at every moment i am caught by surprised.

Just got back from my year end getaway and found out some shocking happenings while i was gone. Nonetheless , i had to find it out from the stupid social network ! what more about christian fellowship counts and being accountable to people whom doesnt acknowledge of your consent in any manner. Or at least a minimal notification.

Oh well, its best that i have already moved on long ago. Much is bless upon me and i know so.

Bangkok trip was awesome with the folks! Best parts were the wide variety of food, thrill of riding the tuk tuk around the city and Shopping for great casual and beach wear. Worst of all was falling ill and fainted + merlioned on the streets of chatuchak market on Christmas Day including the hassle of hailing for cabs and tuk tuk as they are unwilling and raise a price for a fetch! Another down side would be the language barrier!

Rating this holiday would be much better than going to HK/ Shenzhen! i love all the weird and colorful trinkets they sell at bangkok! its pretty much my style and fashion sense!Epic love thailand.

Mr J is meeting me tonight for dinner date at Orchard :) Hope all goes well, i've gotten him a nice belt and White chocolate fragrance soap!

Oh! may this week pass by slowly before school reopens, i want to enjoy my hols TTM!

Its a count down to the New Year in a few days time!!! Happy holidays everyone! its a time to be merry and reflect on the year 2010 and look forward to a new chapter in 2011 :D

Finally!

2010-12-16T15:39:00.002+08:00

Tml will be the last day of this trimester.
this calls a need to celebrate the end of exams once again!

Im currrently achieving my goal in life for now! can see within 3 months there's significant changes! :D

im looking forward to next year's result!!! the road to Chioness is approaching guys!

by that time i can stand up to u suckers who have called me fat or ugly and take that and proven to myself im damn hot and chio lo! hahaha! so for once in my life i need to do this !!!

Freaking excited for the journey ahead! wish me luck guys!

xoxo

who knew?

2010-12-01T21:25:00.002+08:00

Its amazing how time flies... last trimester before the exams i was trying so hard to get over my ex-bf...

and as of now...

I have 3 different guys trying to date me ! this is insane... and pretty hard to deal with.桃花节！

As for now.. since exams are coming i shall make it an exception to steer clear from all of them! perhaps one will be an exception :D

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag?

2010-11-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

Oh Lord, it seems all too soon to be short lived.

Perhaps i might have your wisdom to sniff out the presence of an alien in the midst of my sides!

i wont oh i wont be succumb into temptation !

All i want to do now is to lock my heart in a safe, no one will hurt me no more.

Its not a small feat to love and give all you can to someone or anyone in particular, as there is none like you that we can find in this earth... eternally and we have to live with that.

Munchy Mushy Moss

2010-11-26T21:32:00.003+08:00

Met the "stranger" for our 4th date today for lunch and some good time shopping and chilling out on a friday afternoon. I just told him the dress code would be dress to impress , somehow i think i was dress casual but the great thing was that we had matching colors! ZOMG! how coincidental that can be? we wore a combination of blue and green! that was epic sweet and impromtu...

What's all with impromtu-ness? its just blowing me away each time... hmmm so we had great lunch after my classes at TB plaza . Beppu ramen was Mad spicy love!!! my favourite indeed! after that we headed to Plaza sing and boarded the free shuttle service! OMG! I AM NEVER GOING TO TAKE THAT STUPID BUS EVER AGAIN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!!!pffft! its soooo smelly i could die!!!!Half way through the bus journey, he asked me what's wrong with me.... haha i just told him that the bus was soo smelly, and he burst into laughter and continued to mock me all the way to PS! -.-!

So within 15 minutes at PS, he bought an ipod touch and some other stuff ..... he's so much into shopping today.. and so much for the impromtu,3,4,5,6,7.........

Cant believe he kept all our smses all these while! im surprised... i though im just a stranger to him.....

Ahs.... so long till the 18th December! EXAMS ARE COMING!!! if we ever meet again...

Glower

2010-11-18T19:30:00.003+08:00

There's something about that glowing smile in that cosy burger bar that night.

It feels as if u have known me for long, time will not matter much if we are meant to be.

Oh love, there's a longing in my heart to meet with you again; bring me to some white sands and a palm tree parade.

I wont plunge into the rivers of recklessness nor the midst of a hurricane this time round. I know .

Thank you for visiting my life. 陌生人。

Brown Cow

2010-11-17T23:20:00.003+08:00

How Now Brown Cow my dear!!?!?!?!?!!?!?

sigh sigh sigh......Nothing much about this cow but the question is what should i do with him?

Friends but dating? omg , does this sounds wrong? not even going viral , neither here nor anywhere! this doesnt mean im demanding anything FB official at all :P

I dunno where this is going but do i have to know where all these will lead me to?

Moreover, he's leaving for Aussie in Feb ; how convincing this can be?

Everything is ultimately sweet for now, but reality always hits hard and cold when the time comes. Probably its time to practice the adultness in the 21 years of living on earth with sound wisdom and God's will....Oh babe! lets take a gamble for now...

Friends, but it all remains here . I wonder how much it will takes for him to go all out to get me; i should stop wondering coz from the looks of it, it seems he's really into me......he seem pretty much willing to indulge me financially! Prob coz none other guy friend has ever been soo well towards me ever, not even my ex-bfs ... i know im pathetic!

Im having mixed feelings about this people.... one way or another i truly do know this will not work out especially for a LDR ; might as well let time tell more ...after 3 years and we'll see what will work out for us. Secondly, just acknowledge the stage of dating him; Solely more for the purpose of understanding his personality and character more... Moreover enjoy this moment in life...

So what shall it be? This calls for a long night of prayer and deep consolidating of my guarded heart.

Nights of solitude

2010-11-15T18:45:00.002+08:00

I wear a demeanor made of bright pretty things
What she wears, what she wears, what she wears
Birds singing on my shoulder in harmony it seems
How they sing, how they sing, how they sing

Give me nights of solitude, red wine just a glass or two, reclined in a hammock on a balmy evening
I'll pretend that it's no thing that's skipping my heart when I think
are you thinking bout' babe? I'm crazy over you

Aaah Aaah Aaah
there's something in the water, something in the water
Aaah Aaah Aaah
There's something in the water, that makes me love you like –

I've got halo's made of summer, rhythms made of spring
What she wears, what she wears, what she wears
I got crowns of words a woven each one a song to sing
Oh I sing, oh I sing, oh I sing

Give me long days in the sun, preludes to the nights to come previews of the mornings laying in all lazy give me something fun to do like a life of loving you
Kiss me quick now baby I'm still crazy over you

Aaah Aaah Aaah
there's something in the water, something in the water
Aaah Aaah Aaah
there's something in the water that makes me love you like I do

Oooh oooh oooh Oooh(x3)

Give me nights of solitude, red wine just a glass or two, give me something fun to dooooo

Aaah Aaah Aaah
there's something in the water, something in the water
Aaah Aaah Aaah
there's something in the water that makes me love you like I do

Aaah Aaah Aaah
there's something in the water, something in the water
Aaah Aaah Aaah
there's something in the water that makes me love you like I do

Aaah Aaah Aaah
there's something in the water, something in the water
Aaah Aaah Aaah
there's something in the water that makes me love you like I –

Do do do do do do do

Maze of beau wonders 12.11.10.

2010-11-13T17:16:00.003+08:00

Its strange to take a favour to a particular stranger. Somehow it is easier to communicate as you dont know each other as of yet hence the label stranger. How strange is it that i would even accept to put myself in such situations.Perhaps i have never been able to gain the amount of respect from past experience; with my beau for the night it seems almost impossible for such to happen.

Call me Naiive, but i live with no regrets for the night. Living the thrill and gladness of sharing your life story is amazing feat. I am fearless . What more will it do harm to me? At most i shall shield my heart from falling for you. Two occurence of my first times in life ;enjoyed the late night walk from one district to home and 3D movie!

I sound much like a teenager once again~ gazing the darkness watching airplanes fly past pretending its a shooting star with my beau.

Somehow looking forward to what's next ? . . . hmmm bring it on....

wrecking

2010-11-09T18:47:00.003+08:00

I dont understand how one could count the number of days a couple has been into a relationship? isnt stupid and a total waste of time to do so? probably they are just wondering how long the relationship will last and when they will move on partner in life!

Hit the gym today! saw a really cute twin identical twin brothers! they are soooo identical that you thought u just seen a mirror image running side by side on the treadmill! Think they are super young kids, coz i saw them wearing their secondary school uniform or some kinda ts!

Im officially a gym bunny & im loving it!!! :P

Scheming Motives

2010-11-07T23:23:00.003+08:00

Recently,true colors of people around me are starting to show. Nonetheless, there's definitely nothing much that i can do but probably be more aware that people around me have scheming motives to plot down their desired objectives/ goals set in their lives.

What more will it do us good if you're trying to make use of people around you to get to know someone better? Isn't that ridiculous in the first place; all the more i dislike you as an acquaintance , just that you do not realise it at all. Knowing so, i will be more catious about my actions and words; who knows what are your motives? ...

Moreover, im in a position in life where people are telling me what is right and wrong...sometimes i just would love to let things loose and enjoy every moment of life. It doesnt mean im unrighteous christian; who are you to judge in the first place? ... If it is God's will that some people in my life are worth maintaining the friendship, then why not? Its amazing how 5 years has passed us by, though we had a bitter past, we've grown much older to understand this world of complications and knowledge of what is best for us. I trust discernment and wisdom will be granted unto us!

Things are well, and im glad it is so. =D .

Have'nt enjoyed Sundays like this in a long while. I miss the good times.

I miss the good times...

2010-11-06T00:46:00.002+08:00

Indeed i do miss the good times in life...the ones i've missed out on especially. Sometimes i wonder what would life be if i wasnt a person whom wont be so defensive over my moral rights. I think i do have a mind of a certain maturity when it comes to peer pressure, im not easily given in. I love my boundaries and never used to able to burst out of that thick bubble.

I need to learn to break free from this viscous thick bubble im living in, perhaps i wont miss and dwell on the good times but to enjoy the goodness of what God has given to me in every form of enjoyment. Be it studies, gym, church or even clubbing....i enjoy every moment that is given to me. As long as i know my own boundaries, im sure i will be fine.

Listening to rocketeer gives me a sense of nostalgic feeling.....aside from that reading an ex-friend's blog makes the feeling more intense. Somehow, someway, i know im in better hands now... least i dont have to deal with a crappy relationship that comes my way. Crappy relationships can bring a toil to our physical and psychological emotions; what more can such love do you good when all is miserable and have to be dealt with? Total hassle in my opinion.

With that said, its really time that i have already moved on and enjoying singlehood each passing day :D . No stress, no more stress darling.....

Bombshell hair!

2010-11-02T19:56:00.003+08:00

Have i told you lately how much im in love with you?

Indulging and giving myself away when you take my hand , closing my eyes... with you right here, a rocketeer . Lets fly.... like a G6... baby like a G6 !

I guess you might be thinking im referring to a new guy i met , hmmm so wrong :P

Loving my self obsessed look is the real deal! Bombshell curls are epic for now!

All went wild

2010-11-01T23:07:00.004+08:00

It was a night where all the party animals let loose to come out to play.

Happy halloween. by attica county ;)

Its part of a waste my neighbors didnt caught us on the way out! it would definitely a good scare! ;)

Poor puppy!!

2010-10-21T17:47:00.000+08:00

I can watch this all day and my heart goes out to this puppy !

May Waltz

2010-10-18T20:24:00.002+08:00

I have got a mind to take you away
To some white sand and a palm tree parade
I have got a mind to take you away
I have got a mind to go

I have got a smile that's only for you
Exchanged in secret, the way lovers do
I have got a smile that's only for you
Baby, I have got a smile

Morning sneaks up on us
Shines on our sheets
Waking me into my favourite dream
My best imagining never imply
That you'd be the darling that ended my night

I have got the will to love you always
through the chilliest winter
the hot summer haze
I have got the will to love you always
I have got the will to love

Honey, I know it won't always be sweet
Loving a person is not a small feat
Don't give up on me and I won't on you
Pack your bags baby 'cause I'm taking you

10.10.10!!!!

2010-10-10T00:29:00.004+08:00

Such a lovely date today!ten ten ten.

Just gone through first few weeks of school , everything is quite a blur this semester. Nonetheless, i will trust in God that he will give me the knowledge that i should acquire to get my grades right. Since im only taking 3 modules this trimester, i might be off my guard to get the vibe to study at times. With one week break starting on monday, i should be serious about school work!afterall my school fees aint cheap!

mea~~

Went for Ryan and Vianna wedding yesterday! Felt so happy for the love birds who celebrated their cosy wedding in church with close friends and relatives :) Below are some pictures to compensate for the absence of my blog post and overdued photos that i haven been posing here lately.

Moos moos

2010-09-21T17:45:00.003+08:00

I can stare and watch this all day long!

Just saw my friend's new bf! hehs he reminds me so much of someone i know! hahahahaha!!! omg so much resemblance!

oh well , just a flash back!

anyway finance test was such a bitch! the question that i feared most came to me -.-! i think there's some kinda reverse effect in this fearful thingy! geesh! oh well at least its over for now and i can concentrate on the case study dued this weekend! MA GOSH!

Glad that Huiyee is back from malaysia!!! had lunch with them today! this photo is suppose to be proper! with my slow mo- camera, it did this to them! haha!

- signing off.... a few more days of off from school and case study in progress... soons

G o Go go with the Flow

2010-09-18T22:08:00.002+08:00

Its been a really long time since i've blogged! some recent updates:

School started AGAIN! i cant believe it ! its too fast!~ This semester marks my third year in Uni! In 2011 August, i will officially graduate, will get a stable job and probably hunt for an awesome guy to be my life partner after that. There's still tonnes of options for me till today, and im still figuring out which industry i want to be in... I NEED A STRATGY, A CAREER PLAN!

In the meanwhile, the future can wait and much to be done for now as a student!Im really enjoying my life right now! Whatever im doing at Uni is great and i think i've gotten in the perfect course that i really want to study more about and pursue in life.

Last semester was a whirlwind of tornados and tsunami of assignments and group projects that seemed never ending. The trail was long and tough but i managed to get through it! None other than Jesus he made things possible! Grades are getting better than ever before! amazing enough to look at the beauty of "D"s on the result slip! wahaha!

Recently a friend told me he's learning to make new friends and at the same time lose old friends...that i have to agree im in that phase as well...

some lingering thoughts on a saturday night...:

Friendship comes and go.

Relationships can wait.

Individual career planning is a must.

Music is a soul relief pleasure.

Beauty is temporal.

Money is never enough .

Time will fade...and much of these will too!

But the Jesus we know is never changing; he's the same yesterday, today and tomorrow!

Never say Never

2010-09-06T16:33:00.002+08:00

You can never say never when it comes to Jesus and when you face difficult trials and temptations all the time.

I just realised that in life i really do need Jesus my saviour to really save me from all this insane measures of the world! i dont think i could have gone through all these insane drama i've gone through over these few months!

No doubt he has recued me from the worst to the not so bad situations, i dont know why im still in Eygpt and still unwilling to let go ! i've got to let go ! coz i shall walk into the promise land of overflowing promises and his gracious mercy to be poured over me!

Im really looking forward to serve in the Young adults ministry, to do something back to give back to God! Im excited and willing to do so! I want time to pass on faster and at the same time slow down a little on the academic areas.

In the meantime, there's still things to be cleared out. Clean break call for desperate measures and i really mean it. I just wonder how much it will set me free from these chains i've been holding on to. I cant imagine how much i used to love to be chained and brought down all the time despite the sufferings and pains i may have gone through!

Indeed i deserve so much better , and its better of to trust in God! Im sure he will PROVIDE, and give me the BEST in life ;cause God is always ALWAYS GOOD!

Denial or not.

2010-09-04T19:38:00.002+08:00

I cant believe im still in denial of what has happened, and i pray hard God wont put me through another crappy situation anytime soon. Totally not ready for anything like that for now!

Today seems terribly dramatic. Had a vision or an image that the background of someone was mistakenly someone....and i had a gut feeling at the bus interchange i will meet some old friends and i really did.Next OMG moment was bumping this dude on the bus, who previously confessed to me two years ago but i rejected him instantly.

oh oh oh oh Lord!~ what an eventful evening home from church.....

school has started last week already but it will officially officially start next week next monday...hope everything goes well with the new class and new trimester :)

In his face

2010-09-03T17:56:00.002+08:00

Todays seems rather happening, well its pretty abnormal for something like that to happen!

well least i aired my confrontation to that stupid guy who made me wait for an hour to sell him a statistic textbook and told me he didnt want to buy it after meeting me?

Oh for dear goodness sake! if you have no interest to buy the book from me then tell me from the start and not let me waste my 1 hour waiting for you?

the moment of telling him off was epic! like seriously epic moment ever! it seems like i was of someone of certain seniority (being a year 3 student) and reprimanding a jerk who's trying to make use of my time!come to think of it, its definitely a win win situation for me! whatever, he paid me and i just left!

ah, the drama of school

fly fly fly away

2010-08-21T05:13:00.000+08:00

Weee I'm off to hk and shenzhen for 9days!!! Awesomeness!

Its the first in this year leaving sg! Like finally! My holidays this time round will be. Well spent! Amen! Haha

Thank you Lord for making last semester a great experiences with much challenges in life!

Amazingly with god's intervention everything went well.

Wee I'm at the airport now cya in a wks time

Cheers

Human resource performance appraisel and intervieww

2010-08-15T00:13:00.002+08:00

The interview Panel (list and justify the persons on the selection interview panel)

Interview type:
Behavioural interview; to judge how well the applicant performs in some specific situations and to develop an idea of applicant’s typical behaviour patterns

Objectives of interview:
The objectives of this interview are to assess candidate’s personality and behaviour and their suitability for the job position as a finance manager. To also have a better idea of applicant ability on decision making on some of daily tasks situations that one will have to make such as providing excellent customer service. In addition, this interview will also allow us to understand on candidate’s ability on communication skill as the job requires one to be highly involved with high communications.
Members on the Interview Panel selected:
1. Senior Finance Manager
2. Vice president of Human Resource Officer
3. Customer Service Officer
Interview Panel member 1: Senior finance manager
Responsibilities:
• To assess candidates on the job suitability as a finance manager
• Mainly about past experience within the field of a finance manager or finance related industry.
• As a finance manager, candidate will directly report to you on his performance in daily tasks.
• Based on candidate’s formal qualifications, test him on his knowledge and skills for the job.
• Questions will mainly base on the suitability of the candidate to perform in his daily job and past experience in related industries.
Questions to ask candidate:
1. How many years of accounting/similar job related experience do you have previously?
2. How familiar are you with budget and resource management funds?
3. Did u ever face difficulties in meeting financial reporting obligations in relation to contracts?

Interview Panel member 2: Vice President of Human Resource Officer
Responsibilities:
• Your role in this interview is to understand more about candidate’s career plans and future developments they may have in mind.
• Also to understand how well the candidate understands about the job scope as a finance manager.
Questions to understand about candidates’ future career achievements and developments:
1. What are your long terms or short terms career goals?
2. What kinds of responsibilities do you foresee to achieve in your next job as a finance manager?

Interview Panel member 3: Customer Service Relations Officer
Responsibilities:
• Emphasize in organisational objectives to candidates so that they will know what to expect.
o Providing customer satisfactions
o Emphasis on team management
• Understand if candidate is suitable for the nature of the job in terms of communication skills.
• To assess candidate ability on decision making and various task management.
Questions to understand candidate suitability to providing service:
1. Describe some situations when you faced unsatisfied customer service. How did you deal with the issue?
2. Tell me about some of the group events you had to get cooperation from. What did you do?
3. Discuss about handling several tasks at one point of time and how you coped with stress?

Consumer Behavior Essay on Adidas (Taylormade) Golf Products

2010-08-15T00:10:00.001+08:00

Introduction

In today’s ever changing global environment and diversity, competitions among companies have been in constant battle to gain market recognition. Marketers try to distinct their products by inheriting brands to give a best advantage in positioning their products in consumer minds. Adidas is a parent company that inherited the brand Taylor Made Adidas (TMA); Adidas bought over Taylor Made in 1997(Herzogenaurach, 2007).TMA manufactures a variety of golf apparels and products (Herzogenaurach, 2007).

TMA marketers have understood more about their consumer behaviour in various aspects such as attitude change towards golf related products to some of the social influences it has on consumers and the decision making process when purchasing TMA golf products. However, before exploring into all these areas, it is important for marketers to analyze their target market that they want to serve better.

Target Market

In relation to targeting the right market of TMA interest, marketers have realised that golf is no longer a luxury sport in comparison to older times. Golf has evolved into a leisure and affordable; no longer a sport just for executives (Lee, 2007). With star players like Tiger Woods (Lee, 2007) and Michelle Wie (Silkunas, 2009) who started golf since a young age, golf has attracted a larger audience from the public and different ranges of age groups (Lee, 2007). With the growth of such influential golf professionals, it has attracted more women and teenagers to start playing golf too. Till today, it is still a major past-time for business groups.

To market their product to consumers, there are 2 medium / channel for communications in TMA such as personal and impersonal. Word of mouth among consumers is the example of personal medium in TMA (Lingham, 2004). From Associated Press (2010), it has been seen that advertisements have also been taken place with forms of world cup events. The retailers, distributor and wholesalers are the kinds of intermediary that used by the company to target consumer.

Demographic, personality and lifestyle are the main keys in how a message is addressed. The example of TMA marketing communication such as green grass retailers, off-course golf specialty retailers and sporting goods retail formats with golf-specific departments (Hochswender, 2010);enhancing its brand awareness and recognition in various marketing channels.

Seeing from the perspective of a consumer, there are many different types of advertisements wherever we go and attention span of each will be lesser. Therefore, it is important to allow an attitude change of other golf related branded products in the market to obtain more market share in this area. From (Sporting goods business, 2002), it describes TMA marketers launched a new global advertising campaign; this enables them to target their consumers also emphasizing on product benefits of their product in various languages.

No doubt TMA faces strong competition from other golf branded products, however TMA has a competitive advantage from other sports arenas such as football and tennis (Lee, 2007); it has brought about more credibility and effectively reminds consumers of her slogan.
Nature of consumer attitude

Attitude towards a brand is transferable; Adidas is a popular company in the arena of sports, TMA is also at advantage as attitudes are transferable to its brand extension such as TMA golf products; Hence consumers will relate significantly to Adidas.

In order to influence consumers on changing attitudes from other brands of golf products to TMA products, it is important to consider the tri-component attitude model; that consists of cognitive, affective and conative components; cognitive consists of the knowledge and perceptions and direct experience with the product, while affective is about consumers emotions and lastly conative is the intention to purchase the product (Schiffman, Bednall, O’cass, Paladino, Ward and Kanuk, 2008). All these factors are important to take note when considering the intention for marketers to cause an attitude change to their consumers.
The multi-attribute attitude model portrays consumer attitudes with regard to an attitude object as a function of consumers’ perception and assessment of beliefs in regards to TMA products (Schiffman et al., 2008). By changing some components of the multi-attribute model more effective strategies can be directed to attitude change. One of its methods is to change the relative evaluation of attributes; an example of this would be offering different variety of the same product. In such instances, TMA offered golf products that target the women market (Sicoli,2010); clubs that are designed for women in terms of some attributes such as light weight golf clubs. They also recommended products to professionals, teenagers and senior citizens; this enabled them to customise for different segments of the market. Hence TMA can had better opportunity to persuade customers to switch brands; to persuade customers who prefer one similar version of competitor’s product to switch to another version of TMA’s product line(Schiffman et al., 2008).
In addition, adding an attribute to a product will also affect a change of attitude. By adding an attribute that highlights golf product changes or technological innovation is very influential (Schiffman et al., 2008); it is seen that TMA has taken such actions to change attitude with products that emphasises on technological advancement in their designs of putters. ‘featuring a Superfast RE*AX 65 graphite shaft and moveable weight technology...built to launch ball farther ‘and ‘exceptionally lightweight shafts’ taken from (Lee,2007).TMA has benefitted by emphasising on its latest technology and product advances.
Another effective strategy of changing attitude is via changing the motivational function; such as being motivated by interest of golf and belief that products can best satisfy their needs. Firstly, the utilitarian function will be useful as Adidas has been well known as a sport branding image over the years from Lee(2007); consumers perceive the brand to be one of the best choices to solve their problem. Therefore people will favour TMA products. Another way would be changing the knowledge function; TMA has included more information about their golf products that consumers do not know about and also emphasizing its advantages over competitive brands; such as customizable putters and see-through grips (Lee, 2007).
Social Influences in consumer behaviour
Moving on, TMA marketers understood the factors of social influences that affect buyer’s behaviour as it has been seen that social influence has a great impact in their decision in purchasing items. For example, groups that favour a particular brand of golf products is visible will cause a great social influence and their lifestyle on the brands they play will have a great influence. Also TMA products are considered to be branded items and it is priced at a higher range, consumers will seek for information to understand more about the brand and its performance of its golf related products.
It is understood from Schiffman et. Al. (2008) that social influences can alter behaviour as a result of various methods of communication channels directed to consumers; such as advertisements. Strong influence of communication channels directed to consumers cause them to see information as credible; this is particularly so when it involves discretionary expenditures.
Consumer relevant groups consist of family and friends, formal social groups, consumer action groups and work groups (Peter and Olson, 1999). TMA marketers were concerned as it affects consumers’ environmental perceptions, development of self concepts and marketing strategy formulation. Reference group as described in (Bearden and Etzel, 1982) is “a group of people that significantly influence an individual’s behavior”. In the other words, reference group can be defined as any group that has constructive or negative influence on individual behavior and attitude.
Therefore, it is seen that reference groups serves as comparison points for individuals in formulating attitudes or behaviors. For TMA consumers it is most likely that the reference group is based on a comparative reference group that serves as a benchmark for attitudes and behavior (Schiffman et al., 2008).Marketers of TMA should approach some areas of reference group who plays golf using TMA products, it will give positive influence to other golfers around them about the product if the product gives them satisfaction (Dusek.D, 2009).
There are three most extensively accepted influences which are normative social influence, informative social influence and value expressive influence. Normative social influence generally refers to the propensity to be conventional to other people expectations (Schiffman et al. , 2008).It is seen as a pressure to comply with perceived expectation to achieve rewards or avoid punishment. In the case of TMA products, from Dimmock and Banting (2009), consumers may play golf with their friends or business partners and perhaps the purchase of branded golf product will boost their image and status. If the business reference groups are for the TMA brand; consumers may be spared from punishment. Also from Dimmock and Banting(2009), it is also seen that consumers would comply to reference group choices if they perceive the group can present rewards where such conformity is pressured.
On the other hand, informative social influence normally refers to the propensity to obtain information from other people as reality evidence (Deutsche and Gerard, 1955).Such influences are due to information offered from relevant others about themselves and experiences of the given environment. This is important to TMA marketers as it affects how much time and effort consumers devote to information search and decision making. From Schiffman et al. (2008), it mentioned that it can occur when consumer seeks information from others about a particular issue or also reference group member gives information or observations. Especially for new consumers who do not know much about golf products and are about to purchase golf products for the first time. Nonetheless, as mentioned if consumers are purchasing such expensive golf items for the first time, there will be some affecting factors on consumers. It is also sure that consumers will face a lot of perceived risk and complexity of the products. Therefore it is crucial for TMA marketers to help reduce such perceived risks(Lee,2007); perhaps create information channels by influential golf experts and this will help encourage consumers of their choices.
Last but not least, value expressive influences play a part in social influences in consumer behavior as well. Celebrity endorsements of success or a reference group that portrays better image plays a huge role in value expressive influences. The value expressive influence is whereby a group’s position and behavior like group members can boost the ego of group members and cause others to aspire to be the like(Schiffman et al., 2008). TMA marketers have successfully used famous golf players like Rory Sabbatini to use Taylor Made golf apparels and equipments (Dusek.D, 2009).
To buy the golf product, there are many brands, so consumers need to decide which brand they want to buy. To do that, marketers should aware about these factors when consumers decide on purchase products. Here there are four types of consumer decision making such as economic model, passive model, cognitive model and emotional model. (Schiffman et al., 2008).
Decision Making Process
According to Schiffman et al. (2008), there are three major components in the consumer decision making process which are input, process and output. It is important to take note that not all the consumer go through all the process in order to make the decision.
From Birgelen (2003), sometimes decision-makers select and retain information differently with others because of their perception.The input of the consumer decision making is the external influences which provides the information about the specific product and influences the consumers’ attitudes and behaviour. There are two important inputs which are marketing inputs and sociocultural inputs(Schiffman et al., 2008). Marketing input is the communication the organizations tried to provide and make the benefits and services of their products known and to the potential consumers. The firm’s marketing strategies which include products, promotion, pricing, channels of distribution and market segmentation are direct attempt to persuade, reach and inform consumers to purchase and use its products and these inputs use the particular marketing strategies.
On the other hand, sociocultural input influences the consumer’s purchase decision that consists of communication and reference groups, family, social class, cultural and subculture, opinion leadership and diffusion of innovation and public policy and consumer protection which are the non-commercial influences. Internet recently gives the rate to some product that called eWOM (electronic word of mouth) often give the positive contribution in the process of decision making. (Bronner and Hoog, 2010)
The process of the model is concerned with how consumers make decisions. In order to understand this process, we must know the influence of the psychological process which is the internal influences that includes consumer needs and motivation, perception, learning and involvement, personality and self, as well as attitudes.
According to Schiffman et al. (2008), the act of making a consumer decision contains three stages which are need recognition, pre-purchase and evaluation of alternatives. Need recognition occurs when a consumer faces the existing option fails to perform satisfactorily or there is a desire for something new. Consumer will be motivated to take necessary actions to reduce the tension between actual state and desired state. The actual state is consumers’ perception of their present situation while a desired state is consumers’ perception of the situation they would like to be in (Schiffman et al., 2008).For example, TMA endorsed celebrities to portrays a high need for good performance golf clubs hence consumers will be motivated to purchase with a need recognition of a desire for something new. On the other hand, existing golf players realized that their golf gears are up to performance and hence recognize a need for as new set of golf gears. If the tension is above an acceptable threshold, the need for change will be recognized by the consumer.
The pre-purchase starts when a consumer perceives a need that might be satisfied by the purchase and consumption of a product (Schiffman et al., 2008). There are some factors that may increase pre-purchase search such as long time since last purchase; it is not a commodity to purchase a golf club very often hence golf consumers face product factors to consider. Another would be situational factors, where consumers can purchase golf balls as a gift to their friends (Lee, 2007) or involves first time purchase of golf products. TMA marketers have taken note on reducing perceived risk involved in purchasing their products with professional and expertise advice located at various retailers as mentioned from (Hochswender, 2010).

However, some consumers whom already have experience the product of the brand TMA, they may not have to go through extensive research on the attributes of the product. One example would use endorsed celebrities of golf professionals as they can portray the need for boosting self image due to the high level of publicity. TMA marketers had strengthened the tie between the TMA products, the celebrity and the consumers.
In the stage of evaluation of alternatives, consumers will rely on two types of information. One of which is evoked set; which is a small number of brands from which they will consider and make the selection (Schiffman et al., 2008).the other would be the criteria they use to evaluate each brand usually based on important product attributes. TMA marketers have participated in major golf events such as to displaying billboards and advertisements sponsoring the event this will help consumer to remember the brand and it would be on top of consumers’ head. However, TMA marketers try to distinct their target market such as to target in golf related magazines and golf expert websites(Lingham,2004).

In the last stage of decision making process is the output that consists of post-decision activity: purchase behavior and post-purchase evaluation which are the output of the consumer decision making process (Schiffman et al., 2008). Both objectives is to increase customers satisfaction with his purchase. TMA marketers have definitely include extensive phrases in advertisements to reinforce their purchase on its product performance (Stogel, 2008).

Finally, relationship marketing is an important tool as a function to consumer decision making process especially in post purchase evaluation. Relationship marketing in today’s society of consumers has more choice of brands to evaluate and hence they are less brand loyal (Schiffman et al., 2008). TMA marketers should be concern with the abundance of product choices, availability of information over the internet, entitlement of services and commoditisation of golf products.

TMA marketers could include a loyalty program for their loyal customers such as offering warranties and services for their golf gears over a period of time (Stogel, 2008). Furthermore, TMA marketers can also set up on-going communication to their customers such as setting up an email base where they could send out promotions and loyalty programs about their company to their consumers (lee, 2008); using viral marketing or online base would benefit the company. It is easier for the firm to make an additional sale to existing consumers that seek a new consumer.

Conclusion

In a nutshell,TMA has supported its brand by various consumer behaviour theories as we have discussed in this essay. From the insights on TMA’s targeted market, we are able to understand various efforts of changing attitudes of consumer to rethink about the golf product brands they may be playing if it is not TMA. By altering components of the multi-attribute model and using of cognitive dissonance theory to influence consumers, TMA marketers will help to create better recognition in the golf products industry.

Furthermore, the three social influences that affect consumers plays a major part of consumers’ behaviour. Informative, normative and value expressive are areas that TMA marketers have taken advantage of and invested wisely and effectively in their communication channels and marketing efforts to position their brand and enhance brand equity.

Lastly, by analysing the various decision processes of consumers and manipulating these processes, TMA has successfully delivered their brand image and helps it to stay in the consumers’ hearts and minds. It is indefinitely true that some consumers do not have to go through all process of decision marketing due to their previous experience. However, for other customers, TMA marketers have taken necessary actions to provide beneficial information for those who may need to evaluate their purchase. Through relationship marketing TMA marketers have reduced perceived risks, and helping customers trust the brand more.

Therefore, TMA has the ability to sustain and deliver performance through their branding efforts and bridging better relationships with their consumers.

Exams!!!

2010-08-11T14:23:00.002+08:00

No doubt its the exam period, im still fooling around with my guitar! haha! probably get into deep shit next week! haha!

Brutally unbearable

2010-07-18T17:12:00.000+08:00

I'm unwell again!!!its brutally unbearable !URGH!!

Went to bid my fren jess farewell for cell lunch today.maybe I'm not really close to her so nothing much to long. Anyway , beeeen having a sian sian mood today.

Somehow people are worried and concern about what I'm gg thru right now.but just don't give me the puppy eyes . I get that so often that it makes me feel like there's seriously something wrong with me. I'm alright, perhaps asking me about it will make me feel worst!

Blah blah!

The week is about to end

2010-07-17T23:12:00.002+08:00

Its a saturday evening, spent my entire day at home filling my life with amazing assignments and english tv drama shows. Well least i did managed to do some stuff today, and found out about this tv drama called Pretty little liars! Its like most typical american teenage drama drama but its about a murder plot which is rather interesting apart from the pretty girls and guys i get to adore.

Thinking about the past one week that has just gone by...im kinda feeling sick being worried about grades grades grades; trying to fulfill my best ability to catch up with school makes me feel drained out all the time.Decided to ditch the seriousness in me and just get out there to enjoy life once in awhile. Went to watch movie with S, and was nice. Surprisingly i met someone while i was out with S! i was really taken aback! Oh well, why should i care right?

My life in school has been quite drama drama , and i might need a break from those action. I feel like im thrown into a whirlwind of events that i did not expect them coming towards me. Nonetheless, im thankfull for all the presentations and debates to be over! something worth celebrating over for sure!

I hope i wont get distracted at school by people around me! >.Most importantly i should not be! I should remind myself of my stupid past behavior and its not worth my time if it doesnt work out!

OMG! NEXT TWO WEEKS WILL BE MY HORROR WEEK :(

EXAMS ARE ROUND THE CORNER TOO!

wish me luck as i prepare my suicide :P

Stoneeeey

2010-07-10T19:24:00.002+08:00

Blasting stones on a saturday night....

bleak...i hate this feeling , whatever it is....

boring boring boring! i could have spent it more productive today reading more journals!

am i taking things too hard on myself? i dont think so!

i just felt i wasted my afternoon today :(

time oh time! how can i buy you?

im watchin toy story 3 this coming monday! ahs really need it ! :P

bleahs....school school school.......assignments and MORE! freaking overload! bahs

Sense

2010-07-02T23:59:00.003+08:00

If you known me well enough, you would know i have a very sensitive nose.

Lately i've been having this dilemma with this friend of mine who smell pretty bad ! I have no idea how to tell that person!

sometimes i feel like killing myself when im near that person! and probably have a huge phobia when that person touch my hand or touch me ! its really daunting with all the images of that person having a pretty bad hygiene habit! It totally creeps me out!

probably get nightmares of that person scratching his head, digging out some amount of dandruff and smelling it under his nose! next moment his hands would be all over scratchin his face and proceeding over to his legs and then omgomg! touching my hands or using my stationaries!!!? ewwww i wanna die! worst of all the stench is unbearable! :(

eeeks~! i think the worst has happened today! that person probably has stepped onto some bad and got really smellly >.<

Can someone advice me on what to do? i dun wanna hurt that person's feelings.
should i :

Buy that person perfume
bring my own perfume and overpower the stench?
tell that person directly?
advice tt person on personal hygiene?

but we are already young adults! how could one not know about personal hygiene????? :(

Today

2010-06-27T21:11:00.002+08:00

Today was really good, went for a good facial at serangoon and managed to squeeze out all my disgusting pimples!

damn bloody pain! :(

I witness something today; saw the ever lovey dovey couple speaking in a serious manner at the canteen today... dunno what's wrong; felt there was something wrong right? and they are getting married in 3 months i guess... hmmmm after leaving church i saw them at the bus stop having their serious couple talk talk! they obviously didnt look happy happy...oh well... i wonder and just hope they are alright...

anyways also noticed the entire group group of people dao-ing me...im not really that significant im sure :) it ok and i dont care .Least i might just spare myself some trouble or even my time, i dont owe them anything in life so why on earth do i have to please please these people, they dont give me money . Why would i bother bother?

Bring me on

2010-06-25T23:40:00.002+08:00

I always thought that holding on was the best way to get by, letting go is by far the hardest thing one can fathom.

I trust in God, he will make things right and by his will. Help me to see everything in a different perspective, so that i might be free from all pains.

Truly, i am bless with good friends around me whom listened to me when i needed them . Believing there will be more than this, far greater than this.... Exactly a month has passed on, its been a tough and narrow journey, but im not in this alone.

Never alone..... i just hated the times of feeling lonely and just emotional...

i wonder if tml will be a better day >..<

Half a slice of everything

2010-06-21T20:42:00.002+08:00

Can you tell me? how can two people each ate a slice of cake and pay the amount of half a slice of cake?

That is the most insane thing i ever came across. As quoted by a dear friend of mine " This issue could even make it to the straits times" ! isnt that epic enough to tell tt it sounds ridiculous?

:(

I just cant stand selfish couples sharing half a share of tit and tat, blah blah blah...lovely dovey idiots. At the end of the day, probably would just break up or even divorce. tsk ... how does one save$3.25 for a wedding?

Hate this stupid situation! so screwed up can? probably a lawyer might have lost all knowledge of mathematics.

so much for all the stupid things that has happened.... :( ;im a love hater...lalala

i think i might be going crazy soon; i woke up in the middle of the night and found myself laughing from my dream! oh gosh, like seriously laughing quite hard.... :(

im gg crazy :P

Holidays

2010-06-19T00:33:00.003+08:00

Never felt that i needed another week of holiday more in my entire life :(

Damn tired with all the piling assignments and group projects.

Im not complaining coz i loathe doing my work , its becoz i need more time, groupmates who do their work and come for meetings please..

Oh well, on another note, guitar lessons has been progressing pretty well so are my skills! :D

Its been a milestone i guess~~

rah, recently my blood has been boiling or its just some psychological effect from the break up? i wonder....booos!

i hate what im going through right now, life seems pretty much disgusting at times like these :(

So long my readers

torn apart

2010-06-03T11:45:00.000+08:00

Enough of rubbing it in!

2010-06-01T16:36:00.003+08:00

Thanks people for trying to make me feel better, but i guess i dont need your sympathy anymore!

so much for telling how DRAMATIC and INTERESTING the previous BREAKUPS i've been through, for god knows what reasons both were equally DRAMATIC AND CRAZY!

I know for myself how bad it has turned out to be and you wouldnt have to breathe another word about it. Thanks ya, probably a hopeless in romance. Where bad things happens to good people, i guess that's where all the fallen people in the world goes to....

IMDONEDONEDONE! - so long to facebook for at least awhile, i know i can make it. goodbye fbfbfbfb!

what is love?

2010-05-29T23:45:00.002+08:00

what is love defined by you?

shouldnt love come with passion and fire , irreplaceable soul that you can ever find or desire?

never about satisfying one need to enhance your relationship with another. it would then be called lust.

how then will we ever understand love ? love should be simple . . .

but people love to make things in a more complicated light and try to make things of the world more interesting.

today is one day, i never felt worst in my life to let go and try to move on...with a greater meaning i experiences tonight.

tears that welled up during prayer couldnt help express what i feel deep down inside of me.

perhaps i need him so much more than i ever expected. least things will look a little better for me, and it will take time to heal as i struggle along time...and i will struggle , may rise and fall once again.

* break my heart for what breaks yours

*May my heartbeat be yours

*May i have a passion in you, to love you like never before

*May i take baby steps towards you...

in these i have my hope placed on...

Histories of my ex boyfriends

2010-05-29T13:37:00.004+08:00

History book of Feonna's ex-boyfriends

Petermark

age of raging hormones and naiive
lasted for only 2 months !
fell into a relationship that was too immature and unknown of anything
did stupid things,regretted like shit
Last spoke: 28/5/2010 @ clarke quay 10:10pm
FAILED

Richard

Caring, stingy , filled with occupied thoughts in his mind
Say things but never promised to do any
lasted 2 years and 5 months...
broke up at 28/5/2010 @ clarke quay 10:45pm...
the night i decided to go club with frens and disaster like that happens
sacrificed a good friend for this relationship
Sacrificed some areas in my life ;dreams and aspirations
you said you still love me , even leaving this relationship?
Believed in taking a shot at this... but final call it FAILED

Who is next to break my heart? or who will mend my heart?

Fluffy lived a lie. Fluffy got murdered, fluffy cant feel the pain, fluffy is sad :(

Bah blah

2010-05-16T18:44:00.003+08:00

I LOVE MY CUTE PINK Jelly BAG!! :D teehee~~

can time pass on slower??? i want more time to do my projects and treasure hunt for journals!~

and i wanna enjoy my weekends!! :D

it really sounds like i love to play and not work... hehs. spoilt brat...

today i just found out that richard couldnt pronounce pilates! haha he pronounced it as peee-lates

i have no idea what to blog and that was pretty random for sure!~

im recently having a sinful addiction to frozen yoghurt! anyone care to get me some?? i want i want!~!!!!! how to stop this sinful craving? hmmm find an alternative i guess....

Projects and group work

2010-05-14T00:29:00.002+08:00

Im praying hard that oh god! you gotta help me in this project work! after knowing my team mates, i felt like killing myself! geeeeesh! i hope you guys will redeeem yourself after working with two of them before! zzz the experience was very very fruitful! i wanna cry! and im the only girl in the team!!! Hope they wont bully me and make me do all the work! im sooooo doubtful! i even had to scan my textbook materials for group meeting!!!!! gah!!!!!!! some initiative guys!!!

i dunno if its some guys that will never take initiative or what! grrr we girls will always have to kick their butts off to do their work! Kick ass is a cool way to relieve stress girl! in any case i will have to kick those 3 butts to get them to do their work or even come for meetings! i guess the best way to get things done would be taking down minutes and attendance and mark them down if they are late, absent or whatever reason! i LOVE PSB or i should say NEWCASTLE for the fact that they acknowledge free riders and will mark them down!!! <3>

its massive ranting, but i cant help it!!!

sigh, please make this work >.

Loving may days

2010-05-10T00:12:00.003+08:00

Im Loving may days but not acne breakout days :(

School has just kick start and not much assignments for the moment , but im glad to be back in school. Been bumming around lately been going to eat sogurt for two days in this week ! just love to decorate my cup with all the cute flower shaped marsh mellows and strawberries and many other fruits!

Yummy yogurt. oh well will bring some friends to go chill there some day :)

Cell surprised us to our birthdays on saturday night at mel and james house at amk! yea, i wasnt that surprised coz Mr R burst the bubble :P and it was pretty obvious that suddenly one by one people started disappearing from the living room into the study room to write the cards! haha! but in all was appreciated. :)

Some presents that i've received :)

Ate at some turkish take out for mothers day at orchard :)

TGFS!!

2010-05-05T18:32:00.002+08:00

Thank god for school!!!!

Finally realize there's so much to do now that school has reopened for me! im really glad to go back to school ! Least i get an education that is worth off my parents $$!!

i signed up for guitar classes in school !!! im hoping that people will sign up too!! if not they might have to just cancel with not enough people to join :( . just didnt want the chance to slip of learning that instrument, other than that bringing the guitar to school could be quite a hassle !

hmmm i printed all my notes for marketing research! its so nice of them to provide us all the notes before the semester starts! really hated it when they publish the latest notes one by one... freaking annoying when you cant remb what you've printed out or not...

Aside from school, cell has quite an interesting bunch of people as i've observed over the months! haha! Since we all come from all different age group and lifestyle, i noticed the couples that are going to get married soon are financially stressed out.... seems like getting married will bring along more strain on financial areas....unless you're earning an income that is really sky high....to me its a total turn off! might as well not get married not have children and live a single life and enjoy what ever you earn?

i sound like im declaring i want to be an old spinster! FML....zzz....

im so hungry write now, i guess i shall end abruptly here and grab something for dinner~ ciao

Happy Birthday to me

2010-05-03T22:26:00.003+08:00

Happy happy birthday to me...im officially 21 which marks adulthood of my lifetime.

Most people would think its very reasonable to organize a grand party or celebration to mark their milestone in life. As for me i've decided long ago to skip the grand celebration and hassle of inviting friends to make me feel good about being 21. Im nobody great so what's the point of being demanding to that great extent?

as long as im loved by family members and close friends, im easily contented.

what if.... your loved ones forgot all about it? wouldnt you be naturally sad? filled with utter disappointment and probably throw fits on anger on them? probably not to that extent of that i guess...

i've decided that i would be perfectly lonely on my birthday, since people are all working busy with their own stuff...i would be most thankful for school to reopen today as well , least it wasnt that bad...with nice lecturers and classmates to wish me and have lunch with me...

if you've known me well enough, i wouldnt like to watch movie all by myself . since with lots of time to spare.... i went to watch IP Man 2 all by myself... least it took part of my mind off things...

so much for being 21 ,where the world tell you its not alright to be alone on your birthday and being ignored....it is not true at all...not at all...

Tasteful indulgence led to something more....

2010-05-02T20:52:00.004+08:00

First experience clubbing ever in 21 years of my life, flashing lights and loud music on the dance floor filled with a sea of people letting their hair loose and getting intoxicated with alcohol.... i dont see myself doing that often ...but nonetheless its kinda tempting to club again minus all the drama and music way too loud that you may have to scream your throat out to talk to some random people;which in the end caused me quite abit of misunderstanding in one night that led to another thing :(

In the midst of all the chaos that people indulge in... i felt what i was doing seemed pointless but fun...kill me if i think clubbing is gg to be my next addiction and i hope it wont be...seriously once again im still very tempted to start clubbing often! haha but since im a broke student...i wont be able to afford such night life!all odds are against me.

maybe feeling lonely makes people wanna indulge in that kind of activity? yes indeed i feel so lonely that i hope people wont forget my bday tml...3rd may people....wish me happy birthday ok? drop me an sms or something....it will certainly help alot.... :( not like someone important to me FORGOT to celebrate with me when he said so! :( at least it might compensate all the crap i've went through over the weekend....

i shall be sad no longer till 11:30pm tonight....coz tml's my birthday and i dont wanna cry anymore.....

After the race

2010-04-23T01:56:00.002+08:00

Its been a hectic week that passed me by, although it felt like a long and never ending road the light is always shining at the end of the tunnel.Perhaps i should be thankful that this trimester, im only taking 3 modules , that's why...

As for next semester its going to be 4 modules again. somehow.Upon reflection, this semester has been pretty different from the first. In one way, spending way lesser time with the bunch of buddies in school such as Natalia, Donna and Elvina...and more or less been mingling individually with Megan alot. Im really thankful for Megan's presence,it feels like we've known each other for quite a long while and communicating with her is just that simple.

Academic wise, i hope i have done enough for the final exams as well as my performance in tutorials. There's nothing much i can ponder about since the battle is over for now just leave the rest upon God's grace.

timetable for next trimester is already up,its going to be a busy trimester once again....even more than before. :) hope i will be able to manage my time effectively and with my new laptop, i would use it wisely!

for now, im taking my 1and a half week break. school starts on 3rd may....my birthday if you have forgotten? :P....Though im turning 21 and many people are celebrating their Big 21st, i prolly skip this year and just hope thing turns the way i hope it will....what ever it is, its just simply a number, the amount of time/duration spent on earth....everyone's getting old by the second...so what's the big deal other than its you day? ok i wished to be treated nicely? hope no one spoils my day tt's all....

oh well.. im bored of blogging for now...shall tune into my drama series :P

!!!

2010-04-17T22:02:00.002+08:00

I cant believe what happened ytd for exam! all the question that came out were so unexpectedly surprising, i think the entire UON students are cursing Christine Bruff for settin such weird questions! bloody witch... grrr~~~

i couldnt sleep last night, was in utter shock about the entire exam nightmare experience! :(

sigh! :(

i hate you ! yes you! leaving me aside, like you dont even ask how i am? im like no one to you , and im not worthy of your precious time! :( I HATE YOU! im too pissed to continue copying my cheat sheet for monday exam and resulted to blogging it here! im damn pissed and mad right now...

and i have no bloody idea why people like to spend so much on birthday gifts!? im already serious dead broke for now!~ spare me from all the birthday celebrations . i think im fine being lonely without friends to celebrate my birthdays with, im better off alone....at least i wont have to buy you people present back in return :( coz im bloody broke ok... :(

> cant wait for Uni to be over... least there's income for myself and i wont be so stressed over $ issues :( ....

Soon...

2010-04-12T20:56:00.003+08:00

Why the sad face Feon?

Well coz exam week is here to stay and i can do nothing but study study and study ~ :(

may i find the joy in this learning process, seems like i find little or no motivation to do so...so i need strength to carry on this road....

Aside from the mugging life i have for this week, its been pretty fine, the weekends are always fun with Momoku , its the only time i can irritate him and annoy the hell out of him :P

I've been having pretty weird dreams lately, that i was back in primary school and failed english! i thought i was taking english exams as one of my uni modules! and was so terrified that if i have to remodule that stupid subject, i will have to pay $1k more! its scaring me! i cant believe i saw my stupid primary school english teacher, i vividly remember that she was a terrible bitch and i heard her first child was born prematurely after we graduated from primary school , some of my classmates where saying its her retribution! haha i guess my classmates were pretty mean.

suddenly the setting changed to some shopping centre called Sogo location in HK! i met this awesome/handsome guy from some foreign land and it seems he really loves me alot. i think his name is richard....its so weird! who is that? Sigh, its such a weird dream.....Coz the richard i know is none of that attribute... haha!

oh oh another dream!!! i dreamt i was in church and i saw my primary school friend yuru singing choir with her sisters on stage!!! and they welcomed her ! somehow i was soooo happy that she accepted christ , coz i preached to her before! after the choir singing, i went to get holy communion! here's the best part!!! instead of ribenna, they used Sparkling apple juice that orange glow in that glass cup and they used a biscuit instead of the normal holy communion bread! the weird thing was only my row went to receive holy communion and that's about it...

ok im ending here, hope i wont have such stupid dreams!!!!

EX-AM!!!

2010-04-09T21:57:00.001+08:00

Examsss are approaching once again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:(

time to start mugging and be serious... zzz

sigh....

Aimless Dreams

2010-03-29T23:42:00.002+08:00

Here's another episode of a night filled with endless meaningless dream...there i was again lurking somewhere on this earth, finding for someone. Someone i've lost contact with for almost 14 years , and i only remember her as Bok Kyoung by the way she's korean. Its weird to remember someone whom you havent thought of over so many years and yet you dream of them, longing that some day some how you will meet.

Well i understand it sound so much of the concept of waiting to meet your spouse in this lifetime, but its pretty aimless to dream of that particular friend of mine. Perhaps i dont have a place for her, and i do know im easily tracked down the internet. I just suddenly wonder what happened to her after all these years .

Aside from aimless dreams, alot have been going through my mind as today was the start of holy week. Images and thoughts of what has happened of the past one year flashed back in my mind.
i feel convicted to a certain extent but giving up is difficult.......i wont know how to give up, and i feel tied down by many things that has happened. Being in a relationship that hasnt been working out that well is quite disheartening sometimes. So much that i might not be able to give up at all, the physical intimacy, the longingness of someone being there for you when you needed him, and the level of security you expect from that person.

Or perhaps , i should let him love me the way he will and have said and promised.....so that i may be free from all pains .

I want to hope for your promises... a hope that never fails...

dreams

2010-03-27T11:27:00.002+08:00

Oh i dreamt about being in london with a bunch of people i may or may not know, they were dining at some posh BBQ restaurant! and i decided not to eat anything from the restaurant , and just order a drink. While we were leaving this posh restaurant, the waiter gave a carton of marinated meat , it look really much like shabu shabu (beef) ! and the slab of meat is as thick as a cow! haha. made good frens with that french waiter, exchanged email adds too!

and guess who i saw on the bus!!!!??? Lady gaga and beyonce! hahaha how dramatic. After boarding the bus, i realised i dunno where to put the raw meat... somehow felt a little bit hungry and tempted to eat some bbq-ed beef ! haha

Upon reaching our destination, i was suddenly at cell!!! with lady gaga and beyonce with my cell mate jessica! haha and she was telling everyone she couldnt stand her boyfriend's attitude any longer. i witnessed them fighting at cell! -.-!

that's how imaginative my dreams can be...

haha a bunch of crap!

Spinning stairs

2010-03-22T19:12:00.005+08:00

i've been greatly neglecting this blog for a long time, haha just plain ignorance i guess as usual...are my nails cute? i thought it looked terrible.

Here's some updates :

School has been pretty mundane especially when most projects are done and deadlines have been met but still one more to go this week! so much for marketing project on subculture and consumer behavoir; came across some article and read one about food and the young consumers.

Recently revamped my room furnitures again. My dad sold away my shelves to his company coz they needed some shelvings...and so i am left with no shelves to store all my stuff!!!!on the bright side, i have another table to study on :)

I know its super messy!!!!

And my poor forever friends bear ! stuff in the corner! with a cat... and mickey . somehow it looks like a shrine

Went to try out viet coffee at Marina Square on sunday, which was highly recommended by Bill...ahs! i love that cafe! is soooooo quiet and a nice place to hang out or just have some quiet time.

I've been bullied by him so many times recently :( sobs! im not lying and i have proof ....see!!!

....bahs, im actually procrastinating on my group essay right now....im sooo lazy , i just dont wanna get back to work... and i better be doing so after this post.....

i think i think, im going to have a bad sore throat soon... hope porridge for dinner will help >.

oritey guys , back to work now ;)

till next time

so Much

2010-03-07T23:53:00.003+08:00

too much of everything is bad. dont you agree ?

finally law mid term test ish over! yes such a big relieve... :)

school has been mundane so has life been...

i feel troubled in the sense i love to keep it to only myself and i , coz i hate to trouble people telling them about my troublesome me and make them feel troubled as well... and people will know that im that troublesome girl who is their friend. how fantastic this can be. i know im that complex, i think in a higher complexity and it feels like its driving me mad. its cool aint it? yes yes, im tired tired tired! i've tried so many things and yet what i get is shit shit shit nothing else but utter shit . im so disappointed getting shit all the time. can i get something better out of it? when its being told off , im being said that i have an awful temper and it suck having to know that when nothing else in the world can change me?

I hate all the **#**#@*#@*shit that i receive all the *@#$#@#! time, coz i dont get appreciated after that that its been done! its just crap...after ALL ALLLLLLLL THESE while.............................

how pointless this is and perhaps i shall take my step back .

Feonna, back off, back off, for now....things will get better.....oh god, teach me to back offf...i need to back offfff................................................................

Amen

Addiction

2010-03-01T22:58:00.004+08:00

In any situation that could happen, people may perceive things on various kinds of perspectives. It depends on how you view the issue and how one will have an opinion on them.Im not pretty much an optimistic person but i can tell you i tend to think alot on minor issues. Sometimes they even haunt me to my nightmares....how exaggerating things can be...

sigh....

Been studying the entire day on contract laws, and i feel like an unconfident lawyer in training! i guess if a case is thrown to me to decide on the matter i will definitely lose the case like a beaten up ragged doll.....For now, my brain is filled with the word law law law law....offeracceptancecontractintentiontocreatelegalrelationshipcarbolicsmokeballcasefisherandbellharveyvsfaceyreasonablemanof anobjectivetest....blah blah blah~~~~~

and im still on one chapter :( zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

oh well...on a lighter note, i spotted a bird's nest on my corridor!! its so cool to be that close to mother nature...

leaving off with i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate!!!!!!

goodnight evil world....

Twirl

2010-02-28T22:14:00.002+08:00

I have to be back on track, school assignments are approaching and i need to stop contemplating on when i should do them and just do it ! These few weeks have been pretty mundane, should it be good? since mundane will mean somewhat peaceful? probably it is...

Im very annoyed with all my stupid emotions as well, it comes and go, for all i know, i dont want to know them either. Im obviously running away from reality , when i should be facing my greatest fears. this is really stupid, why why why?

i know i shouldnt be thinking about stupid things, there's law mid term test next saturday and i should be concentrating. Geesh, sometimes i put too much effort into somethings in my life and it seems that none of what i have been doing is doing any good. At the end of the day, i put in so much effort and i dont see what i should deserve out of it , im utterly pissed.... how can i express myself even more?

it seems hopeless doing so much and giving so much to people who dont appreciate what i've done for them...im just that imperfect, cause nobody is perfect and i wished i was that nobody. Nobody to anyone...

Just a little bit of

2010-02-17T19:06:00.002+08:00

Broke down with tears overflowing last night for no apparent reason, started blaming the whole world for being so harsh on me. I know its dumb but sometimes i just need that littlest assurance from you and only you, and yet i dont get what i want at times like this . I've decided weeks ago that no matter what happens, which ever which christian fella comes and tell me that i shouldnt be dating you i will ignore them, and i seriously dont give a damn anymore.

I just want a little bit of affection , just a little bit more :(

ok im so fucking screwed right now, you probably wont be bothered about me anymore :(

Welcome the Tiger year!

2010-02-13T23:11:00.002+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year Everyone people!!! Enjoy the holidays!

Decided to do something special with my nails after being inspired by some youtube videos

Guess its not very clear, since i took it at 11:30pm on new yr eve! haha! so was rather impromtu

haha roar! i have tiger claws :P lol!

i also saw michelle pham's tiger inspired look whihc i think it has a very fierce look, probably might scare off my relatives when visiting them and hong baos will be very pathetic lor! better not! hahaha!!

oh wells will be a long day tml, since cny falls on v-day and on a sunday! haha! i have a feeling that church will be very empty and v-day spirits will be drowned by CNY . Not celebrating V-day anyway, dont have to be on a v-day to be with zhenggsenn....as loooong as we're happy that all that matters :D

Welcome the year of the Tiger people :D

Its gonna be fun fun fun!

You CANNOT!

2010-02-12T11:40:00.004+08:00

Last night was great! had reunion dinner with family and zheng senny also came from work! :D

Had steamboat with alot of very nice ingredients! abalone, fine canto dishes and many more!

I forgot to take pictures during dinner! rahs! only this one :) haha!!!! olives and more olives :p

On a side note, School has been zzzz rather terrible with some xxxx not doing work for project! it sucks and i do miss my polymates who does work for group project >.<

As for church, nothing much has been going on with the CNY preparation everyone is busy and haven met them up for quite awhile. Oh wells.... someone showed his unhappiness too that no one replied and wanted to do some church activities, but all was so last minute. just didnt wanna do it lar >.< .So, you cannot force people to do things they dont wanna do. No one shall do that to me! i was quite fed up previously and decided some things for myself la and this way im much happier as a person! :D

Wee~~ i want my hong baos this yr! :D can save up and spend sometime in the year ! HOPe to collect more more more :P haha

long

2010-02-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry

bright and shineeee

2010-02-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

All i can say is "saturdays have never been that awesome in a longest time !!" <3<3

Stopping by ...

2010-02-03T23:19:00.001+08:00

Courtesy of Singapore flyer and Uni mates, we present to you that photo...

haha! oh well had an enjoyable flight on the sg flyer last thursday i think :) it was my first time on the flyer and i guess it was for all of us! haha we were oh so excited when we boarded the capsule! my friend even ran for the capsule when she saw a couple approaching behind us and squealed in excitement! that scene was owned!

I still have my marketing essay to complete at this point of moment, i thought the due date was on thursday , tml! until i saw my planner this afternoon and realised its on friday 5pm! all the more i though the freaking word limit was only 1000 and started panicking until faithul megan dung told me its 1500!! >.<

i think im awfully stressed by the deadline that caused me to have sleepless nights as well as weird dreams about "re-taking" an exam format similar to IRHR that requires one to write 5 essay questions within 2.5 hours! OH gosh! i feel like that worried old aunty , anxiously worried for Chinese new year.... stocking up tonnes of food for the festive season!

*OMG! I DONT WANNA BE LIKE MY MOM! opps..did i mentioned my mom? hahhahahaha!!!

POOOFS~~*Off to marketing essay* airplane taking off.....

grudge or thought?

2010-01-31T18:25:00.002+08:00

Weekends have never been better with Mr richie, its been fun fun fun!

finally caught that heartwarming movie " HACHIKO" !!! the doggy is suppppppeeerrrr smart!!!!!and freaking loyal!if u're a dog lover , you should really watch it! dogs have feelings too!!! so dont eat them! esp china peeps!

Went to illuma to play some arcade games!!! wanted to get the pink panther!!! but but zzz mok, thought it wasnt worth to kiap kiap that toy coz it cost $3 for one grab! >.<>

of all, i thought it was nice to catch up with richie after a week of busyness...he was even willing to take a huge detour from bugis and travel the red line with me back to jurong east! haha! who on earth would do that for you? haha! ahs he's sweet!

on a side note, i shall be more serious this week ahead...assignment due date is coming soon~ have to do sooo many things!!! roars! but im still looking towards the weekend again!

Ponned church today to go to city harvest though. hehs, my dad decided for a change today, i guess was nice with the hyped out crowd and great energy from the service :) . after awhile at BRMC , things can be very stagnant and boring.........and with the "Atas" culture...zzzz

so long, WEEEKENDS PLEASE COME SOOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :):)

But I can't stop loving you

2010-01-26T15:50:00.000+08:00

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
Then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand all that your love can bring

Oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you
Oh, with half of my heart

I was made to believe i'd never love somebody else
I made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
Lonely was the song I sang, 'til the day you came
Showing me a better way and all that my love can bring

Oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you
Oh, with half of my heart
With half of my heart

Your faith is strong
But I can only fall short for so long
Time will hold, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart
But I can't stop loving you
But I can't stop loving you
But I can't stop loving you with half of my...

Half of my heart
Half of my heart

Half of my heart's got a real good imagination
Half of my heart's got you
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won't do

Half of my heart is a shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man who's never really loved anything

Make me say cheese

2010-01-26T00:04:00.002+08:00

Anyone craving for a block of cheese? haha there's tonnes behind me in this picture!

Ahs, the weekend has been fun fun fun!!!!has been MB fun times :p i want more of that though.....hmmm if only you know what im saying :P

school has officially started with assignments piling up, but i shall vowed not to get them piling up that mountain this time round :D

somehow things between Richard and i have been quite good recently , hope this will last though. Think we still need to learn alot from each other, in terms of growing up and maturity, i can be very very childish though! hehe!!! as wilfull and naughty as ever...

oh well, it takes time... :)

school tml , shall fight the ZZZZZzzzz monster soon

nights

Down

2010-01-20T11:31:00.001+08:00

Counting down!!! down down down down down!!! :D :D

olla olla beautiful weekends

2010-01-16T23:59:00.003+08:00

Saturday was great great great ,despite the need to go school early in the morning for lessons!

Had lunch with Richard at the soup spoon !!! awesome lunch!!i love their clam chowder!!! to top it all off lunching with him was nice, we rarely have such a chance to take time off for lunch :) I felt blissed in someways i have him around ...

Went cell, had bible study and some sharing with Basic peeps...

Just laid back saturday with great plans that came in unexpectedly...thank you lord...felt it was planned so well... :)

wished time will just stop at this juncture, but im there's more to come in life to anticipate on the good times

Genuine hearts

2010-01-13T00:05:00.002+08:00

i cant stop loving you with half of my heart....

I know why...

2010-01-09T23:24:00.002+08:00

I finally understood what makes me remain with you all these while, at least you gave me encouragement when i needed it badly. At least being with you makes me feel better when the world tells me that im not what they think i should be. Its not that bad afterall, with you around. Please continue to make me feel this way, at least you still love me for who i am, a person with flaws...

Sometimes the people closest to you say things that are discouraging , but i know you are always there before me... telling me that everything its ok and none of that matters coz i am me, i am the one and only feonna.....

at least you make me feel prettier when im with you,

at least you make me feel good about myself,

at least you dont discourage me ,

that that's how i know why, im still with you ....

Eversince that faithful day...

2010-01-08T15:09:00.004+08:00

You said it so, but yet you didnt keep your promise for tonnes of times...why should i believe when something simple cannot be fulfilled? are there more than lies to this? i feel cheated , deceived and everything is a lie.

Nothing more than a lie...... Liar liar pants on fire...

Unwell

2010-01-07T18:05:00.003+08:00

Have been unwell for the fourth day consequetively, least my sore throat isnt that bad and no more diahhrea...just left with runny nose. argh! i hate runny nose! u get a wet nose every five minutes, sneeze several times in a day, constantly having to pull out a piece of tissue paper to blow my nose...yes that's what im doing now...

Can i heal faster????? Oh well, lessons ended for this week :) aint that awesome? there wont be lesson for me till next saturday!!! weee~~ i feel so slack already , just as school has officially started -.-!

i hate blowing mucus out from my nose! gah! zzzzzzzZZZZzzzzzzz....

On a side note, i managed to bake apple crumble on new year's eve . Its one easy recipe to follow and the apple crumble didnt taste that bad afterall, got some praises from parents, richard and a few cell mates though.Although it kinda looks like chicken chop due to the color and the texture of the upper crust , the stewed apples taste great with the extra bits of cinamons i added to the broth :)

Stewing the apples

Baking in process with the mini pathetic oven ! haha

Tadah! hahaha the look alike chicken chop apple crumble!

Oh wells, that's all for today . Cheers

hei peee tuuu jeroo wan jeroo

2010-01-06T20:10:00.002+08:00

Hello unknown readers once again, happy new year :)

Spend my new year eve counting down at watchnight service as usual, which was indeed enlightening.

Went for YAM party at singapore yacht club for dinner and some fellowship. Honestly, i didnt like the crowd as it mostly consists of " Atas " social club . Felt like leaving the party halfway through, but continued to stay on for the wide spread of food. Brought Richard along as well, i guess he enjoyed the food as well la :P

Finally caught a decent movie , Avatar, its quite good i would say...probably incomparable to princess and the frog. Oh wells...what more can i say other than enjoyed it.

Somehow im not dreading about going back to school very much, but im dreading the condition im in right now ... fell sick on monday with a terrible sore throat followed by a motion of diarrhea and runny nosey... ahs i wanna get well soon so that i can concentrate better when school starts

Feon, get well soon!!!! :)

Finally

2009-12-31T01:18:00.000+08:00

Its the last day of 2009! Have some great plans to count down to 2010 later tonight :D

as normal, will be at church watchnight service with family , richard and cell peeps. Hope all goes well.

I think 2009 has been a life changing year for me! so many things to give thanks to the Lord and many things to dwell upon. No matter what, we should look forward to the future!! as for Jeremiah 29:11 says that God plans a better future for us ahead as we trust in him.

Going to bake apple crumble later in the morning! :D i hope all goes well!!! so that i can bring some for people to try tml at church :D

oh yes, also hoping that richard doesnt have to work full time tml!!! its NEW YEAR'S EVE EVE EVE EVE EVE!ARGH! ITS TERRIBLE IF ITS FULL DAY WORK! INSANE! :(

oh well.. so long 2009 bloggy,

i realised i've been very lazy to blog nowadays

Christmas day

2009-12-26T10:49:00.003+08:00

The morning started off rough that richard sprained his ankle AGAIN ! and couldnt go out for the entire day.... i cant be really bothered about that anymore. hehs~

Went to church to give out presents to friends and relatives!! :D Its a great feeling to give than to receive. i think im blessed alot through this year so i dont feel that i shouldnt give ... hmm yea...

My family and i decided to do something special for christmas , so we decided to help out at ACS(International) befrienders at the carnival... who knows... tsk tsk tsk tsk! argh! rahs!!!! ok im still very pissed off from the incident!

some stupid uncle came over to our table at lunch and started scolding me and my parents for NO OBVIOUS reasons! ARGH! i even videoed that grumpy old man with that huge belly scolding us! There's no reason for him to be shouting at all!!!

goodness! and he was doing this all in public! PUBLIC where there were non believers among our midst! ITS INSANE! im still shock by the incident! how could that joker be behaving like this ! i feel that its totally inappropriate!

Anyway , i guess i had my revenge already. Im not afaid of anything because i know i have not done any wrong at all. This issue is not going to rest on my feet! im concern for the church and the school! i dont want people to encounter such incidents again!

On a lighter note, we left the place after the rain had stopped and headed to tiong bahru for lunch...and then over to Clementi that's my paternal grandparent's house to visit them. Yea, i would say it was pretty fruitful christmas afterall...

after that we went to Vivo to just walk around and have dinner after that.... Headed on to daiso to get some stuff, and met another weird fella again! >.<>

rah!!!! we quickly had dinner at some peaceful restaurant and headed home asap so that we will not spoil our night....

WHAT A CHRISTMAS.......hmmmmm i guess even on christmas day, reality strikes in :)

well at least i've learnt alot on how to deal with weird people.. hmmm

this is the video of that grumpy fella

why oh why?

2009-12-22T11:30:00.000+08:00

In thanks giving

2009-12-20T13:52:00.002+08:00

Thank you lord, for the exams that has passed .Last two weeks has been intense examination marathon , i guess its usual for all Uni students. I have been feeling so much unpeaced with so much emotions to be expected on the coming holidays.

Many unsettled emotions that i forsee myself having to deal with. Friday was my last paper for this trimester, went out for lunch with uni mates and had some bonding session .

I thought i might not be able to make it for cell retreat, but in the end God made plans and time for me to go. Which i thought it was amazing to survive through the 3 days two night retreat. Many aspect of cell has been covered and im very glad that much of it has been fruitful and pleasing to god in many ways. We voted for our cell leader (aiping and denise )and named our cell B.A.S.I.C (brothers and sisters in christ).

Other than that fellowship and heart to heart talk is beyond description of words that i can say. I believe my first ever cell retreat was so fullfilling and truly blessed to have such great companion!

I just felt 2009 has been a year with many struggles and god has blessed me with to help me make my decision and to allow him to bring me down this road with him.there's still much for me to think through before 2010 and there maybe some changes to the following year. May have to take that leap of faith to breakthrough, and will need lots and lots and lots of prayers and support.

EXAMS!

2009-12-15T11:30:00.001+08:00

the deadly IRHR has been defeated! woots! 2 more papers to go!!! :D

so not looking for accountings exam though... rah rah rah!

till further updates... :P

Timelines

2009-12-05T10:11:00.000+08:00

Im hating every moment that you dont cherish of being tgt.

never ever

2009-12-04T23:41:00.002+08:00

Ever felt that living your life is not of anything you have expected to be living?

things that u get arent the things u ever wished for?

even for the wildest dreams that you ever wished it could happen to you in some way or other?

or probably discontented with how unhappening your life can be?

urgh! im currently feeling this way, i just wish all these feelings could fade away. its annoying when you dont get what you want. On how things go about for your own plan. But have i ever considered that all of these arent my plans at all? its all in God's hands?

though it is god's plan.

but sometimes, you just want to let your hair down and get crazy and just be free for a second? like maybe being more laid back and dont care so much about things? feeling constraint from all the other things you can ever imagine that you can attempt to do...

:( i dont get what i want, so what should i do?

People might be thinking im getting out of my mind.Im not coz im sure everyone has that inner bursting desire that you always want to do or try out...hmmmmm maybe its one of my deeeeepest thoughts in this week .

We all want our freedom, but when , where , what, and who will make it true ?

i wonder...............

Messed up

2009-11-29T23:14:00.001+08:00

My feet is aching :(

....yawns .... im still finding for my motivation to come back to me.....

rahs!

Stingz!

2009-11-28T15:38:00.002+08:00

i need my momentum to get back into study mode, please come back to me baby! haha!!!!!

rahs

Empty

2009-11-24T22:23:00.000+08:00

Hope what i perceive is not true in any form of my thoughts.

Rah! stop this Feonna! stop it! its kEEEELING me >.<

*slaps myself* WAKE UP! its not the time to be thinking but the time to start doing!

Windows

2009-11-22T14:50:00.001+08:00

Hello Mr Pigeon, taking a rest by my window on a beautiful sunday afternoon?

how are you today? your beak seems to be a little crooked from the erosion of the wind i see..

after taking the picture... i shoo-ed it away and off it flew to another neighbors window :P

I miss you birdie :P , im being so random.

ahh! exams are coming....sayonara bloggy :P

out of the overflowing river

2009-11-17T20:37:00.002+08:00

A very ugly picture unfolds all of our character as we get to know them deeper. Well, no one in this world is perfect we shall never be contented with what we want and a demand for a desire to change a person.

Love thy neighbor,love your lord your God, love your spouse, love your friends, love your enemies. Indeed loving people around you is never easy, so then how can we live to show the love for so many people?Nonetheless, God's love is everlasting for us, his love is eternal, unconditional. We also see our God as a never changing god. He is the same yesterday , today and the future. He still loves us. Have you ever felt someone showering you with that unconditional love in your life time? Isnt it blessed to be loved by someone? it doesnt have to be love for a dating couple or a couple pursuing marriage. It can be as simple as family love , for parents, grandparents and siblings!

Im very blessed to have my family to standby me, especially my parents. I just feel amazed at the length of things they are willing to go to ensure that im provided with every essential need in my life. Be it education and many other daily necessities. So much is given from God too! He pours unto my cup of an overflowing river....ahs... the goodness of everything. Its undeserved GRACE.

There's so much to think about right now in my heart, really unsure of how to reach out to people who needs the blessing of christ. When the time comes, he will show the way.

Cold feet

2009-11-15T21:37:00.001+08:00

The world is like a mirror ball, spinning from the after glow of love....

Politics are rising in the midst of so much turmoil at school, watching everything happen makes me feel that im glad that i haven nothing involved with anything. Other than that , its always a learning progress for such a time as this.No doubt bitterness among neighbors will arise, I hope everything goes well.

Today has been a whirlwind of jostling in the crowds of orchard once again! how i loathe it being in Orchard on a weekend .Walked around Plaza singapura today, spotted my good fren elvina working at build a bear! she's such a cutie pie!!! especially tending to all the little customers !!!

Got pretty pissed off at dinner, so much for a cup of icy green tea and photo taking that ended up super crapped... im somewhat annoyed.:( Im getting cold feet from all these...argh!

A new week kicks off tomorrow , another saga of lectures . Im loving Uni life ,and treasure every moment of it :D

Sayonara

Remember December?

2009-11-14T11:12:00.001+08:00

Last night my stats groupees and a few others doing stats went for dinner at Tiong Bahru plaza, had an awesome dinner and chatted for almost hours at Mac almost about anything and everything.Gossip girls@newcastle.edu.au , that is our group's email address. To join us, just email us and we will be glad to welcome you to the club. Ok ok...im joking, there's no such kind of activities in our school.

Im very glad to take my saturday off from almost everyone else for myself.Im quite done with roaming around the streets in Orchard on a saturday, every mall has the same things! it's just so boring to even hang out and things outside aint cheap. Im just a poor student with daily allowance.

I've been taking quite a few offenses off the social website. To my perspective,people really take things into their hearts especially with whatever you post to let everyone see, they either think there's something wrong with you or you mean what you say on the social website. Im pretty much fed-up with that. People just infer your mood on what you mention and take it that you might not be in a good mood or something. Does it always have to be that way?Come on, take it easy, its just a social webpage why so serious?hah!

On a lighter note, my hair isnt as straight as a broom stick anymore . Some natural waves of the roots has taken into place :D

So long for a lazy saturday afteroon ....

LIVE!!!!

2009-11-08T20:58:00.007+08:00

Its sad to say, holidays are ending, a few more weeks to go for exams to come .

many things to do, much more time is needed for everything to be done.

hope god will bring me thru this :D

Went shopping today after church alone, some retail therapy done.

Bought a Adidas purple t-shirt for jogging , and a pretty cute hairband!

Oh yes i guess i haven updated for a long time with picture on my blog.

Picture of the day ! hahaha! this one is epic! im so evil i am actually posting this on my blog instead of facebook, well least its not facebook right ?
bring him to go pluck eye brow la! haha !! quite fun seeing someone being tortured right? "muahahahhaha" evil laughters

I hope things will go thru smoothly for the next week , with all my agendas to be done and stuff~

oh wells so long bloggy, im off to get prepared for next week's lecture and tutorials, sayonara :)