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Saturday, May 29, 2010
what is love?

what is love defined by you?
shouldnt love come with passion and fire , irreplaceable soul that you can ever find or desire?

never about satisfying one need to enhance your relationship with another. it would then be called lust.

how then will we ever understand love ? love should be simple . . .

but people love to make things in a more complicated light and try to make things of the world more interesting.

today is one day, i never felt worst in my life to let go and try to move on...with a greater meaning i experiences tonight.

tears that welled up during prayer couldnt help express what i feel deep down inside of me.

perhaps i need him so much more than i ever expected. least things will look a little better for me, and it will take time to heal as i struggle along time...and i will struggle , may rise and fall once again.

* break my heart for what breaks yours
*May my heartbeat be yours
*May i have a passion in you, to love you like never before
*May i take baby steps towards you...

in these i have my hope placed on...


Histories of my ex boyfriends

History book of Feonna's ex-boyfriends

Petermark
  • age of raging hormones and naiive
  • lasted for only 2 months !
  • fell into a relationship that was too immature and unknown of anything
  • did stupid things,regretted like shit
  • Last spoke: 28/5/2010 @ clarke quay 10:10pm
  • FAILED
Richard
  • Caring, stingy , filled with occupied thoughts in his mind
  • Say things but never promised to do any
  • lasted 2 years and 5 months...
  • broke up at 28/5/2010 @ clarke quay 10:45pm...
  • the night i decided to go club with frens and disaster like that happens
  • sacrificed a good friend for this relationship
  • Sacrificed some areas in my life ;dreams and aspirations
  • you said you still love me , even leaving this relationship?
  • Believed in taking a shot at this... but final call it FAILED

Who is next to break my heart? or who will mend my heart?

Fluffy lived a lie. Fluffy got murdered, fluffy cant feel the pain, fluffy is sad :(






Sunday, May 16, 2010
Bah blah


I LOVE MY CUTE PINK Jelly BAG!! :D teehee~~

can time pass on slower??? i want more time to do my projects and treasure hunt for journals!~

and i wanna enjoy my weekends!! :D

it really sounds like i love to play and not work... hehs. spoilt brat...

today i just found out that richard couldnt pronounce pilates! haha he pronounced it as peee-lates

i have no idea what to blog and that was pretty random for sure!~
im recently having a sinful addiction to frozen yoghurt! anyone care to get me some?? i want i want!~!!!!! how to stop this sinful craving? hmmm find an alternative i guess....




Friday, May 14, 2010
Projects and group work

Im praying hard that oh god! you gotta help me in this project work! after knowing my team mates, i felt like killing myself! geeeeesh! i hope you guys will redeeem yourself after working with two of them before! zzz the experience was very very fruitful! i wanna cry! and im the only girl in the team!!! Hope they wont bully me and make me do all the work! im sooooo doubtful! i even had to scan my textbook materials for group meeting!!!!! gah!!!!!!! some initiative guys!!!

i dunno if its some guys that will never take initiative or what! grrr we girls will always have to kick their butts off to do their work! Kick ass is a cool way to relieve stress girl! in any case i will have to kick those 3 butts to get them to do their work or even come for meetings! i guess the best way to get things done would be taking down minutes and attendance and mark them down if they are late, absent or whatever reason! i LOVE PSB or i should say NEWCASTLE for the fact that they acknowledge free riders and will mark them down!!! <3>

its massive ranting, but i cant help it!!!

sigh, please make this work >.



Monday, May 10, 2010
Loving may days

Im Loving may days but not acne breakout days :(


School has just kick start and not much assignments for the moment , but im glad to be back in school. Been bumming around lately been going to eat sogurt for two days in this week ! just love to decorate my cup with all the cute flower shaped marsh mellows and strawberries and many other fruits!
Yummy yogurt. oh well will bring some friends to go chill there some day :)

Cell surprised us to our birthdays on saturday night at mel and james house at amk! yea, i wasnt that surprised coz Mr R burst the bubble :P and it was pretty obvious that suddenly one by one people started disappearing from the living room into the study room to write the cards! haha! but in all was appreciated. :)




Some presents that i've received :)


Ate at some turkish take out for mothers day at orchard :)


Wednesday, May 5, 2010
TGFS!!

Thank god for school!!!!

Finally realize there's so much to do now that school has reopened for me! im really glad to go back to school ! Least i get an education that is worth off my parents $$!!

i signed up for guitar classes in school !!! im hoping that people will sign up too!! if not they might have to just cancel with not enough people to join :( . just didnt want the chance to slip of learning that instrument, other than that bringing the guitar to school could be quite a hassle !

hmmm i printed all my notes for marketing research! its so nice of them to provide us all the notes before the semester starts! really hated it when they publish the latest notes one by one... freaking annoying when you cant remb what you've printed out or not...

Aside from school, cell has quite an interesting bunch of people as i've observed over the months! haha! Since we all come from all different age group and lifestyle, i noticed the couples that are going to get married soon are financially stressed out.... seems like getting married will bring along more strain on financial areas....unless you're earning an income that is really sky high....to me its a total turn off! might as well not get married not have children and live a single life and enjoy what ever you earn?

i sound like im declaring i want to be an old spinster! FML....zzz....

im so hungry write now, i guess i shall end abruptly here and grab something for dinner~ ciao

Monday, May 3, 2010
Happy Birthday to me


Happy happy birthday to me...im officially 21 which marks adulthood of my lifetime.

Most people would think its very reasonable to organize a grand party or celebration to mark their milestone in life. As for me i've decided long ago to skip the grand celebration and hassle of inviting friends to make me feel good about being 21. Im nobody great so what's the point of being demanding to that great extent?

as long as im loved by family members and close friends, im easily contented.

what if.... your loved ones forgot all about it? wouldnt you be naturally sad? filled with utter disappointment and probably throw fits on anger on them? probably not to that extent of that i guess...

i've decided that i would be perfectly lonely on my birthday, since people are all working busy with their own stuff...i would be most thankful for school to reopen today as well , least it wasnt that bad...with nice lecturers and classmates to wish me and have lunch with me...

if you've known me well enough, i wouldnt like to watch movie all by myself . since with lots of time to spare.... i went to watch IP Man 2 all by myself... least it took part of my mind off things...

so much for being 21 ,where the world tell you its not alright to be alone on your birthday and being ignored....it is not true at all...not at all...


Sunday, May 2, 2010
Tasteful indulgence led to something more....

First experience clubbing ever in 21 years of my life, flashing lights and loud music on the dance floor filled with a sea of people letting their hair loose and getting intoxicated with alcohol.... i dont see myself doing that often ...but nonetheless its kinda tempting to club again minus all the drama and music way too loud that you may have to scream your throat out to talk to some random people;which in the end caused me quite abit of misunderstanding in one night that led to another thing :(

In the midst of all the chaos that people indulge in... i felt what i was doing seemed pointless but fun...kill me if i think clubbing is gg to be my next addiction and i hope it wont be...seriously once again im still very tempted to start clubbing often! haha but since im a broke student...i wont be able to afford such night life!all odds are against me.

maybe feeling lonely makes people wanna indulge in that kind of activity? yes indeed i feel so lonely that i hope people wont forget my bday tml...3rd may people....wish me happy birthday ok? drop me an sms or something....it will certainly help alot.... :( not like someone important to me FORGOT to celebrate with me when he said so! :( at least it might compensate all the crap i've went through over the weekend....

i shall be sad no longer till 11:30pm tonight....coz tml's my birthday and i dont wanna cry anymore.....